can i hurt you? (anthony hindsight)

i see the way your lies envelop your existence. how they eat you away. how you sink deeper into your hedonistic ways. indulging is all you can do to cope with the irrevocable events that shaped your life. everyone loses. you hurt, she hurts...i hurt. i'm done compromising myself. what i need, my desires. i constantly remind myself that you would only drag me down. you would lie and cheat and never truly be my partner and equal. i would never be respected for my beliefs or the magnificent person i am.


but i've never been spoken to that way. i've never been looked at in that manner. there was no fear in your eyes when you looked at me. and i've never been handled with such affection and assertiveness. when i looked at you, i saw every pure and remarkable sliver of your being that you'd forgotten and forsaken. i held back as much as i could for fear of rejection. but i would have loved you. and i would have believed in your ability to love me.